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Hello everyone, I am still alive, still rolling. Grad school isn’t done with me yet, but in a few weeks it will be the end. I am writing hundreds of pages for my remaining classes, therefore, my brain is fried and have nothing to say to you folks at the moment 😦 Sorry about that! But despite taking too many classes at once and working full-time I found time to dress up today for an important interview with Australia. Watch for the link on my facebook🙂.

Happy fourth of July everyone. Please go do something smart and awesome!

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The story continues

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Something scary happened on Friday the 13th. I am not a superstitious human, but for those who are, just keep reading🙂 . I started the day groggily and dull like usual.  5:30 A.M. started off with a cup of coffee to prepare me for the day, so I wouldn’t silently kill anyone with my thoughts. I had great anticipation that it would be scary (in an exciting way) and knew it would put an additional layer of pressure on my already busy adventurous life. Just what I like! I drove to Fort Worth and met with my publisher, Amanda Thrasher, who owns Progressive Rising Phoenix Press, for lunch. The lunch meeting consisted of me getting a full traditional contract offered for the SECOND book!. Yep, that’s the scary part that happened! Might not be scary to y’all but for me it’s a new kind of scary.

I will be out of my comfort zone once again as I continue sharing my story of emotional stress, depression, and most of all success!  I agreed to sign the traditional contract and now the pressure is on to continue writing. I’ve already started it, so hopefully in early 2017 the second book will be ready! I am a tad nervous, but I am also super excited because I am in great hands. Amanda will be guiding me and she is the best role model out there! I also have fans who motivate me to continue going. So keep the motivation coming!

New traditional contract accepted for second book

New traditional contract accepted for second book

 

When it’s awkward

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I wish I would look this pretty and not-awkward when I hold my own book.

I don’t know this author, but am happy to model the book for him in a awkward selfie photo. I took a 100 something selfies before I was satisfied, but now I am using the first one I took. Always happens. I don’t understand how people do selfie-Tuesdays every week. Or is it selfie-Saturdays?? I don’t remember. My smile hurt by the time I was done. I hope Sammy Rhodes appreciates my efforts.

I spontaneously bought this book on amazon after seeing it on twitter. The twit was twatted by Sean Lowe – the famous bachelor from Dallas who married Catherine on TV. So of course I had to buy it since it was recommended by someone who has a million fans.

In this book, the author talks about parents being gifts and are not returnable😉.  But really, he dugged deep into his wounds when his parents divorced when he was still a kid and his struggle with depression into grown-up-hood. It is written in a light-hearted, hilarious way, but still is able to make the reader feel emotions – sad and happy. It is hard to open up to painful experiences we fear people will judge us the most, but it is so good and freeing for the soul. Opening up allows healing to begin. Enjoy your awkward moments🙂

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Jeeze wiz! It’s my accent..

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Tonight I went to McDonalds to grab dinner. I only go there once a year on valentines day.🙂 Just Kidding. I ordered what should be pretty easy for anyone to understand, but apparently not the young guy at the register. Especially with all the new slang nowadays my accent should blend right in. haha

The ordering went like this:

Me: I want a McChicken with cheese

MC Guy: Swizz cheese??

Me: No, with cheese

Mc Guy: wiz cheese?? (he looks at me wide eyed and confused).

Me: (instantly Wiz Khalifa the rapper went to my mind. Lol, I don’t know why).  Let me rephrase my order. PUT CHEESE ON MY McCHICKEN sandwhich. I didn’t yell, I just spoke clearly.

Mc Guy: smiles and goes around the corner. Then comes back with a bag and says I put two McChickens WIZ cheese.

Apparently I say WIZ for WITH.😦

A word on destruction…

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Some people who feel a void in their lives seem to gravitate toward more destructive means of filling it, from substance abuse and restlessness to even – as of late – joining up with terrorist organizations. Why do you think some people are able to turn that yearning into something positive (such as an education and a career) while others drift into something more dangerous?

I received a lot of emails from college students around the world who are working on class projects doing studies on Amish people or on those who have left the Amish. The question above was from a student who was using me as an example as someone who had struggled with life and managed to pull through in a positive way rather than gravitating towards destruction.

At first when I read the question, I thought, HUH??? Destructive people, substance abuse, and terrorist all in one sentence! No way. Just no way will I answer that. I don’t even know how. Those were my thoughts at first. I assume there are many reasons a person might join terrorist organizations. Hate. Depression. Stupidity disease. Mental issues. Or simply because they are too lazy to do the right thing. I have never met someone that joined the terrorists, so I wouldn’t know why someone would have the yearning to do that. I can only assume.

Living a destructive unhealthy life is a different story though. I was reminded of how easy it is too fall far into a pit of darkness without realizing how dark it is or was going to get because the devil knows how to entice with instant gratification. That’s human nature, to get what we want and when we want it. It’s the easy way out.

To turn a destructive behavior into something meaningful and positive requires a lot of focusing, planning, money, sleepless nights because of homework (if you’re in college), and not to mention it takes years to get an education and build a career. It sounds discouraging. Of course, you can live a great live without getting an education, each has their own preference.  I went through times where I was exhausted in all levels possible.

I can’t do this. Then I’d sleep for 14 hours, wake up and think I am such an idiot. I CAN do this. Sleeping helps though🙂 . If all else fails take a nap.

Not having the family support is an obstacle, but it also made me want to rise above all odds and make something of myself. For that reason, it’s important to associate with good positive people that will encourage you. Those who gravitate towards a destructive lifestyle do so because they simply don’t have the capacity in their brain to think there is a better life to be had.  I know this because I dated a guy once who suffered from depression. I had fallen on my face several times since I left the Amish, but nothing serious until this moment. It was a very bad, BAD idea because I got sucked down with him and experienced a very miserable life that I wouldn’t want to experience again. I didn’t notice right away which path my life had taken until I was at the lowest point and didn’t even want to communicate with my friends. I ignored those who cared the most. Part of me didn’t care anymore because I thought I’ve tried to be better and it didn’t work. So this is it. I was depressed.

One day I woke up and decided I am very pathetic and my life needs to change NOW.  And it did. Once I had made that decision, my book got published soon after, and I made the choice to move away from the small college town to a big city. Started over. Of course the life change didn’t happen instantly. I had to work at it, plan it, pray about it relentlessly, and act upon it. I have never again allowed myself to get that far off the messy stubbly path where I settle for what’s right now instead of working to achieve what’s really meant for me. I now have a great career, almost done with my master’s degree, and have remarkable Christian friends in my life whom I love dearly.

Having that co-worker, who is also my best friend, makes living without my sisters by my side so much easier. Having a publisher, who also ended up being a mother-like role model, makes those moments when you need a mother to talk to so much easier. Most of all, dating a great Christian man makes me feel more fulfilled than I thought was possible. I praise God for him every day. Literally. I write down all my praises in a journal to remind myself what I have now and not let myself get back to where I was.

I never was a substance abuser and I never thought of joining a terrorist group so I really don’t know what makes people gravitate in that direction. However, I know that it is so easy to gravitate towards an unhealthy lifestyle. People fall off the hay wagon into manure and then get back up. It is normal. Asking the higher power for help to get back up makes a significant difference. Trust me. I hope and pray others, Ex-Amish or not, will get back up even when it’s a grimm life because it is so worth it. Don’t stay in a pile of manure🙂.

be some type of way

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Someday you start to accept your detours in life with your head held high and your eyes wide open. You learn to build your forks in the road on today’s ground because tomorrows are too uncertain. Make the same mistake five or six times just to be sure. You will learn the difference between changing a soul and holding a hand. You will learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises. Doing everything and being everything still allows for criticism, just as when you do nothing and are nothing. It’s hard to win.

You will learn to plant your own garden of flowers instead of waiting for someone else to bring you some.

Take chances. Say no sometimes. Spend all your cash. Be random. Take pictures of people and things everywhere you go.

Let go of friendships that are forced. Put a comma where there is a period just to see what happens.😉

Give your time helping others; it will make you appreciate everything you don’t have. Laugh hard, cry harder. Say sorry. Say I love you, but also tell people how much they mean to you. Tell a butthead how you feel. They will value your honesty someday.

Happy end of 2015🙂

I will randomly put this picture here. Just because.

My Sister and her husband in Northeastern Maine.

My Sister and her husband in Northeastern Maine. (Photo by: David Shaw)

Ex-Amish girl wants to dance

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Good morning,

As I am sitting at Starbucks drinking coffee on a beautiful gorgeous Friday morning – the beginning of my 3 day weekend (I have an awesome job), I am reminiscing all the things I’ve done just this year. I surprised myself and I am happy… that’s the way it should be.

I always think of my long and short term goals quietly in my head for a while before I actually verbally say them out loud to another human being…

because I know once I say it out loud it has to be accomplished. That’s just the way I am.

I had the urge to go on a mission trip earlier this year, mainly because I felt a need to use my many blessings to bless others. However, I had no idea how to even plan one, much less where I wanted to go (there were SOOO many options), so I just took a leap of faith and choose Nepal. Once I had my heart set on Nepal, then I started letting my friends know what I was doing. Of course, I waited to tell a select few until I had my plane ticket so there was no way I could be convinced not to go🙂. Yes I am strong-willed! I get it.

Now that I have accomplished such a major challenge and realized how truly broken my soul was.. I have a new goal that has been circulating in my brain for a long time and I finally started verbally expressing it to other people… ooops!

I want to be a contestant on Dancing with the Stars!

I can’t even begin to say why, how, or if it’s possible. This goal is different because I can’t be solely in control like I was with the decision to go to Nepal. I can’t just buy a plane ticket and decide I will show up on the dance floor and make those judges go “oooohhh” and “awwww” over my dancing skills (I have none).

If I go on the show…

I will be out of my comfort zone more that I have ever been. That’s what I want.

I will embarrass myself every single day. I can’t help it.

I will cry happy and mad tears within a few seconds of each other. I  am simply a girl.

…. but mostly – I will express happy emotions.🙂

My publisher Amanda Thrasher believes in me and everything I do. She believes Ellen Degeneres should read my story and also took in the consideration of my dreams to be on Dancing with the Stars. We are both a huge fan of Ellen and being on her show would be a great honor. And most of all… I could finally have a chance to be dunged in the water tank.  Please read my publishers email to Ellen below and share share share :-)  I love y’all!

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Dear Ellen,

I’m writing to you on behalf of Emma Gingerich- she is a role model for women, college students (non-gender specific), teens and tweens. Raised Amish with her immediate family the ‘community.’ She made her clothes and was forbidden to use electricity or running water. Rarely played and of course transportation was a horse and buggy. She knew she wasn’t supposed to live that way. “It wasn’t her.” She decided to leave.  Kept it secret and endured bizarre dating rituals and medical treatments until the day she left. Had the clothes on her back and fifty dollars.

– She lived with strangers in a barn.

– Eventually moved in with a family.

– Shunned by her family.

– Taught herself English.

– Got her GED.

– Went to College

– Worked for the family that she lived with

– Went through horrific ordeals no one should experience

– Got her Bachelor degree and is working on her MBA

– Wrote her book.

– Attended writing conferences.

– Found a publisher.

– Goes to signings.

– Continues to speak, sign, and share her story.

– Kept her faith.

– Went to Nepal on a mission trip to serve others.

She’s 27 years old, young in some ways, so smart and strong in others. Impresses me every single day. My heartbreaks for what she went through. No woman, let alone child (mentally she was), should go through that, yet I’m so proud of her. By the way, her dream of all things is to be on Dancing with the Stars. Can you believe that? If anyone can arrange that, it’s you.

Sincerely,

Amanda M. Thrasher

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Amanda Thrasher and I. AKA: my English mother

Amanda Thrasher and I. AKA: my English mother

Now I Can See

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It is hard to put into words exactly how the mission trip to Nepal has impacted me. It changed me as a human being. I now feel ashamed to walk into a grocery store and have all the options of every kind of food imaginable. I have the option have cooking whatever I want or go to a gazillion restaurants during a course of a year. In Nepal – eating rice is a luxury, but it is also a staple food for them and is a preferred meal rather than a hamburger.

It took time to get used to the hectic all-over-road-disoriented-traffic and pollution. I would flinch every time I had to cross a busy intersection because I felt like a walking target for some little Tuk Tuk to run over me. There are no stop signs at all so you can only imagine the chaos. Even in America, it’s sometimes scary to cross a road WITH a stop sign because you never know who’s flying through the streets only to get to a bathroom or running from the police🙂. However, the chaos and flinching stopped once our group left the city of Kathmandu and made our across the magnificent, indescribable Himalayas Mountains to a quiet village near Hetauda, Nepal. It was peaceful there. Hot, but peaceful.

I loved this baby girl so much!

I loved this baby girl so much!

We stayed at a church hosted by the most humble and happiest people ever. They made us feel like we belonged in the village, which helped us to prepare ourselves for the task at hand; walking to different homes hidden in cornfields and hills to pray and be the light for the sick people, broken and poor people, and rebuilt houses for those affected by the earthquake. Sometimes my eyes saw NOTHING in those dirt-floor buildings called homes, but yet those living in them thought they have everything… meaning they have all they need and are grateful. Sometimes we need to see nothing in order to realize we have everything we could ever possibly need. God provides always. I went to Nepal – not to shove religion down people’s throats, but to be the light. TO BE LOVE!! That is what Christians are called to do, wherever, whenever, and everywhere, no matter what religion or culture. This story could go on….forever. With Love, Emma G.

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A momma and her baby cleaning her home.

Playful happy boys!

Playful happy boys!

The group visiting with the locals :-)

The group visiting with the locals🙂

She has some big shoes to fill :-)

She has some big shoes to fill🙂

A Sparkle of Hope

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Well, I am finally back to writing after a hectic semester of graduate school (I am getting an MBA degree). I had taken a year break and I was eager to get back into college at the beginning of this year. I have a hard time starting something and not finishing it. However, I had somehow forgotten how hard it was to work full-time and take college classes at the same time. When the teachers sent out the syllabuses and requirements for the classes, I immediately knew I was in trouble. All of a sudden, I had a huge head banging realization that getting a Master’s degree is no joke. Not only did the reality of college sit in, but I was also moved to a different position at my job where I was required to be in training for eight weeks. I had to learn insurance contracts, medical terminology, and process refunds for patients and different insurances. I loved working for the hospital, but it was hard at the beginning. I even worked overtime for little while.
As the semester started and moved forward, the researching and writing began. I wrote business type research papers until I was constipated. At one point, I was writing an average of twenty pages each week for almost two months. And to make matters worse, everything had to be APA style formatted. The teachers graded heavily on APA, rather than content of the paper. My grades were decent, but I thought I could do better. I always am hard on myself even if I am doing something that I don’t enjoy. My information technology class was exceptionally difficult and the harder I tried, the worse the grade was. Or so it seemed like. There were times where I just thought there’s no way I can get through the entire semester. I had thoughts of quitting, just drop everything and run. Little thoughts went through my head saying a Master’s degree isn’t worse it. I actually for once thought getting married and starting a family was a better option🙂. But I had a goal to finish so every time I had a negative meltdown, I pulled myself together and pressed forward. I didn’t have much of a social life, I wanted to sleep like an old person with any free time I had.
People, I am here to tell y’all that if your goals and dreams seem to be far out of reach and hard to accomplish, then you’re doing it right. This doesn’t apply to just education. Things worth having are never easy and if it is, then you’re not dreaming big enough. It takes great determination and willingness to succeed. Be a role model for those that look up to you.
My final grade for both classes were an A. I was super over the moon surprised and ecstatic!. I had definitely settled for much lower grades because towards the end of the semester I just didn’t have the energy to care. But now I am motivated to continue on with my Master’s degree and have plans to graduate in less than a year.
This semester, I learned that it is okay to do homework till 3:00 A.M. Saturday nights and then get a few hours of sleep before getting up and go to church for an energy boost. It’s not lame to do homework instead of going out. I also learned not to be so hard on myself, duh…. What a mystery. Sometimes less is more. I hope God will spare me a few wrinkles for realizing this😉.

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Amish Exploited?

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The other day I get a text from a friend asking me if I had seen the new show called Amish Haunting. I responded with, “Nope, never heard of it and I don’t care to see it if it’s anything like Amish Mafia”. I’ve never really had anything against the Mafia show as I was able to just make jokes out of it. I thought of it as harmless entertainment, although I wouldn’t have wasted a penny to watch that kind of entertainment. As for the new Amish show, I didn’t think much about it until today I ran across something on Facebook that caught my attention and before I knew it I was watching a clip of Amish Haunting on YouTube. I only could watch maybe eight minutes of it until I felt my blood pressure rising. The clip I watched was about this little girl receiving a doll from an outsider (English) lady, but it quickly turned nasty when the doll was considered evil by the Amish parents, but it was too late, the little girl got possessed through the doll. I won’t get into any more detail than that. I can’t wrap my head around the purpose of creating such an unrealistic show depicting the Amish. I am sad that the Amish are getting exploited to the very extreme. The show airs on Destination America channel, which after my curiosity got the best of me, I looked up the channel and it’s all about ghosts, monsters, and all evil related things. Very creepy. I just hope for all those people who are Amish fans will not find Amish Haunting entertaining and will definitely not take it serious. I have nothing against people who like ghosts, monster, and possessed shows, kudos to you. I just don’t associate myself to that kind of stuff, especially not if it’s portrayed as reality, when it isn’t. Just had to put in my two-cents!

Have a great weekend everyone!